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(no subject) [Nov. 16th, 2008|12:51 am]
I love worms and snakes!
 It's both sad and funny when your friendship with a guy (read J) becomes "more and more reasons why dating guy (read J) is a bad idea." 
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And in other news... [Sep. 23rd, 2008|01:39 am]
I love worms and snakes!
What the fuck was that?

His five o' clock shadow was scratchily...
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(no subject) [Sep. 21st, 2008|09:38 am]
I love worms and snakes!
I may or may not have acquired an unwanted Turkish suitor in the past 30 minutes.

... : /
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Additional proof as to the angst-tastic nature of LJ [Sep. 6th, 2008|10:11 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
[mood |cranky*facepalm*]


I read the community TodayIRealized as a sort of mental exercise to remind me that there are people in pain and to gently remind myself of my ability / need to heal them. But sometimes...they are just a bit too angsty for me to take them seriously:

(leaving hope writes:)i've always known happiness isn't for everyone...

but today i realized, while looking at the stationery sets in a bookstore, there's very little dark or angst in the commercial world. where's the borders with dead trees on gray winter nights for people like me?



right.....


As if that weren't bad enough, there are comments:

(Tia junan writes:) or the pink-toned paper with the bloodied little razor blade footer? (for me!)

(LH:) haha, yes, with a little bloodsplatter here and there...

should just start a stationary line ;]

(TJ:) yeah, but then we'd be a big success and make a bunch of money. We'd become partners, maybe fall in love, live all happy, etc. Who needs that shite? Wrecking our own sales.

hahaha

(LH:) nah, it's like i said- happiness isn't for everyone. it's a way of life, i'm broken, i imagine you're broken, even if we fell in love it'd just make the rest of this fucked up world a little more bearable ... but not happy. =P

then we might just end up making stationery of rotting corpses in sunny fields of fresh flowers.... bwahahaha!


(TJ:) "...it'd just make the rest of this fucked up world a little more bearable ..."

that's what booze and orgasms do tho, right? idk what love does, really. I think it rips you off if you get a joint checking account with it.

(I bet I'm more broken-ner than you!) So let's laugh.



There it degrades to them discussing what free gift to include with the purchase...razor blades, maggots, or blood red pens. At some point the words "Introducing 'Just Freaking Say-it' stationary line extensions. Great for suicide notes with style."


Oy.
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(no subject) [Jun. 16th, 2008|11:50 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
[mood |discontentdiscontent]

Matt just called and we had a 20 minute conversation.

It hurt, but I didn't feel like my heart was being rent in two so that's a good thing.

But now I hurt. Or maybe feel sore is a better word.

Why did he fall out of love with me? What happened? Why did he cast me aside as soon as it became inconvenient to love me?

This is the second guy who breaks up with me with a sudden change of feelings when I take too much effort to love.

Shouldn't love of me be effortless? Or if not effortless, the benefits so much that they outweigh the costs?

I won't let myself fall into the belief like last time that I am unworthy of love, and am too needy, and push people away, and am a drain, a fungus to those around me. Matt, like Ian, just wasn't good enough for me. He didn't deserve me.

I have to keep telling myself that. And have faith that someone will come along who IS good enough for me.
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(no subject) [Mar. 4th, 2008|07:56 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
[mood |indifferentindifferent]

This girl knows what lj is all about:

http://lostlove91.livejournal.com/profile
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(no subject) [Jan. 29th, 2008|03:41 pm]
I love worms and snakes!


You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

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(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2008|05:38 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very High
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Low
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test
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Hanya Haramita Shin Gyo [Jun. 22nd, 2007|12:55 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
[mood |calmmeditative]

FYI: I am alive

I am at the Green Gulch Farm Zen Center. I have been here about 3 weeks, am doing excellent research. Over 100 pages of field notes and 18 interviews. I am enjoying myself immensely, although the 4:30 AM wake up bell is a little jarring and whatnot. I have another two weeks here, and I am both happy and sad. I think I am getting my fill of crazy eco-liberals and can't WAIT to get a Starbucks first thing upon leaving.

But I am meeting REALLY interesting people. Like whoa. Like people who gave up their corporate jobs to become zen priests.

Also, I get NO cell phone reception, so don't expect any answer to calls for the next two weeks.

So. I miss you all. And I will hopefully talk with you sometime soon.
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PSA [Jan. 30th, 2007|06:44 pm]
I love worms and snakes!
I cook with way too much oil.
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